Positively are perfect

haiiiiiiiiiil guyz

It's middle of the night, well overthinking (maybe) and yes overthinking is killing. okay. i screwed up. let me share about random thought.

your crush is ugh rhan. ew. ah. entahlah. maybe most man just like me. sorry for being like this, put you all on friendzone. i knew how it feel.

I beg you pardon. and maybe we realized something between us. ah. benci untuk bilang ah bodoh, bodoh. pernah dalam keadaan suka dan more than. dan susah, seabad kuburin perasaan sendiri, setiap apa yang dirasa, percaya dan masi berdiri untuk yakinin diri sendiri 'rhan, allah seeing, allah hear' dan terus perbaiki diri tiap harinya. but with all these flaws yah, i hate i still care. will you face the truth and act like nothing happen?! will you?! 

and i just posting on my blog something not-so-important-thing-just-daily-stuff and then he said everything comes in little things. Time flies so fast, yup. 

Being single for years and more is quite boring. and growing old is suck.sometimes I look and act like childish. YES. ahahaha. I'm not deny it. but I said however old are you. there always childish side in yourself. I think that is God's way to keep you enjoying your life and live up your life like child. no over thinking and feel free. feeling happy for being alive. Barakallah 

It's never easy to keep your head up while some shit happen *terus semangatin diri sendiri* They said feeling change, yaa people move on because life is never stop. I already moved on *okay. maybe. not feel so sure *sigh. But somehow I feel i'm not going anywhere still stuck in here waiting for something unseeing which some named faithful. I believe in 'Allaku'. I believe sadness is temporary but who were in happiness now, sedihnya ya saat-saat lagi sakit ya gitu ajasih, kaya semacam 'aduh, ada gitu yang eh lo beli obat deh buruan, suka bgt pelihara sakit' ya gitu, mandiri ga jelas suka kemana-mana sendiri,ya tahan banting sama kondisi diri sendiri. beware of something called fake happiness, um ya. So better not easy judging first because you won't know what happen next in God script. Just pray and God know the best. dan itu sangatlah syahdu, tetap berfikir positive, apapun yang dirasa, dialami, selalu minta dijauhi dari pikiran negative.

A hero can be anyone.mama, i love you. didikan guru agama lah, sehingga ya like mother like daughter. sehingga suka terlalu agamais ke org banyak, jadi baik pun itu masi juga ada salahnya. But I don't know how to keep stand for what I choose to believing. Ya I'm tired of all these shit.kenapa ga bisa jahat, kenapa ga bisa masa bodoh, kenapa ga bisa, ah ya gitulah udah ga tau hati ini made in apa, but it feel more kind,tetap bersyukur setiap waktu.

live fast, die pretty. mereka bilang life is short jadi please forgive quickly. aneh dimana aduh apalah yang salah, atau ya terlalu polos, me maybe? 

feeling nothing is worst feeling ever, larinya ke makanan mulu. feel bored larinya ke makan, payah! jadi dulu ada yang suka bilang 'jangan makan banyak-banyak ya' iya, tapi i do ujung-ujungnya. 

Why oh why, You don't love me and you say goodbye, If you leave me I will make you cry, Boy you set my heart on fire, Take me higher

ini mah lyric lagu gitu, apayah judulnya? entahlah think aja sendiri. kenapa akhir-akhir ini suka bengong trus keputer lagu melow ba-die, pernah denger dubsteb? gitulah kira-kira aliran hati seketika.

maybe all I want is to see you happy even I'm no longer being the part. aduh, udah ga tau sama tulisan sendiri, smile smile smile, no man, ga fakey kok. Stay strong any I whisper to my self.